I won’t lie, I wasn’t bothered by the daily prompt today, I knew I just needed to write. However sometimes things just fit! And…for the record I will never ever be completing DIY and home improvements again. EVER! I thought I enjoyed it….LOL! (WOW!)
I’m very muddled right now in my thoughts, there is a lot going round my head right and I can’t work out how to tell you my feelings or thoughts without looking like one of those brain clouds where everything just comes out in squiggly lines, here, there and everywhere.
I have been pretty much making home improvements recently which has been nothing short of a nightmare and lots of hard work. I finally feel like I am getting to the finish line but it will still be at least a week or so before I get it how I want it. I can’t do it on my own so I have been roping in various friends and family to help. Even though I’m a typical Leo unfortunately I have to wait for their availability, without sounding impatient, I am so lucky and grateful for their help.
So why is my mind so muddled? I’m perturbed by life recently. Work, relationships, stress and happiness. They are so all well entwined sometimes I struggle to separate them and get to the root of my problem.
There is something that has been taking up a lot of space in my mind the last few weekends and its exhausting. It is genuinely a positive thing but me being me, I keep questioning it, overthinking it and looking what could go wrong to the point i’m driving myself insane.
I can’t seem to enjoy anything or what could be because I am constantly looking at “What if?”, “Maybe just..” “Why would?” and “When will?”…I really need to stop. I just need to stop. But….ARRRRGGHHHHHHHHH! I want answers dammit! There isn’t even any answers yet! I just need to let things be.
Sometimes you dream too much, your mind wonders to things that could be but your brain remembers things that have been. There goes my daily struggle
I told you I was muddled.